Crescendo

My heart beats...


Still it beats...


A steady beat...


Every...


Single...


Day...


My...


Heart...


Beats.


In rhythm to the motion...


The motion of the flow of...


The motion of the flow of this world.


Every day my heart beats...


Every day my heart beats steady...


Steady as a drum set...

Rockin' out to music...


Music that is in my soul.

My heart beats.


My heart beats.


My heart beats.


My


Heart


Beats


So


Slowly...

Then I feel

An increase

in my once steady heart

beat.

My adrenaline is rushin'...

seeking out excitement...

Still my heart beats...

faster.

I can't tell what makes my

Heart rate start to rise when

All my clues are hidden

From the scope of my

line of sight...

Beat

Beat

Beat

Beat.

I feel a strange thrill

And I cannot quite tell

What it means.

So every day my heart beats.

Every day has increase.

And it hasn't stopped a bit since it started.

Friday!

All things considered, Fridays are usually my favorite, whether or not school occurs on such days. Today happens to be a school-free Friday, and feeling particularly inspired this morning, I felt like opening the Foam Cabinet. I found...






Expression. 




I express myself in many ways. We all have our own ways to express ourselves. 


One of my ways happens to be this blog.
Another is my art.
And yet another is using so many random hand motions that I'll smack someone in the face. 


So, today, the Foam Cabinet wanted me to express myself beyond what I usually put in these posts.


I'll use my art.
Photos.
I'll use what I noticed.
Yesterday,
Today,
Maybe tomorrow...


I'll express myself, in the hope that you can realize how important I cherish anyone else's expression. 






A demonstration of expression.
By Cale Josten




My phone is an angel. It is lime green, and the best tool in the world...

And I superglued that lime green case to it...

Why is my phone (which I have appropriately named "Angel") such an angel?

Because, over an hour ago, I took a few pictures of my artwork, and used my e-mail app to send them. It didn't work... or so it seemed.

But Angel proved me wrong and sent the photos nearly two hours later! Right as my camera decided to be stupid again! Haha!

So, as a tribute to everyone, and to Angel, I will display these photos, as an expression of my views on the world.

The dragons of thought. Connected, structured, but has plenty of room to change.

A favorite word of mine; psyched.



Even though it is never a pleasant feeling, I like to prove to the world how if I can cope with trickery, lies, and betrayal, everyone else can.

Lips... they say a lot. These are forming a mischievous smile. I'm not the best at drawing such things, though.

If you are the observant type, you will notice that this is a white flag, formed by the twin towers. I drew this on 9/11. The words are from the lyrics of a song, "Lay Your Weapons Down" by Eddie Kirkland. 

I drew this after watching Insidious. Just because I wanted to.

This was drawn entirely by Sharpies! The face was completely un-referenced, too...

My little sister, Betty Kate...

She gave this to me.

I love her very dearly.

I hope she realizes this.

And I think she does.

A flapper from the 20s.

Shh...

A crying eye.


These are painfully easy to draw.


Interestingly enough, I rarely cry anymore...


Hmm.

If I make a band called "Slice", this could be its logo.

What I noticed on Facebook. And My thoughts accordingly.


I saw this as someone's status. I see many of these things and sympathize with them. But this one... I have to say it is completely true. In a way. My comments will follow... 

"45 THINGS A GIRL WANTS, BUT WON'T ASK FOR:

1. Touch her waist. 
2. Actually talk to her. 
3. Share secrets with her.... 
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.


Are you remembering this?


6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.


KEEP READING ...


11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she's beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her. 


One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.


21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she's your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!


WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US ...


26. Don't lie to her.
27. DON'T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can always count on you.


ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT'S IMPORTANT.


31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.
35. Don't ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If she's upset, comfort her.


REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT ...


36. When people kiss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.


MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED.


41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you're sitting on her."


Yes. I agree with all of these. In a way. BUT...


-I don't want every guy I date to do this. 
-I only want the guy who's going to marry me to do all this.
-I don't want you guys to think that you HAVE to do any of these things for your girlfriend, 
just because she's your girlfriend.
-Whoever you are dating... or are interested in... please respect the fact that she probably won't be the one marrying you. 
-Imagine that she is already married, and has a few kids, and they are all right there with her wherever you go. This shouldn't change until you ask her to marry you, and you become married.
-I am not this needy. Ever. I am sad that it takes Facebook posts like these to tell guys what they already know. If a guy really loves you, you don't need to tell him this stuff.




In conclusion:


My thoughts are my own, based off of experience. I am still very young, and have close to no experience. But, this is my expression.

40th Post, on the 10th day of the 10th month, in the year 2011

And what a month is has been!

Time is so useful these days, but for blogging? I have close to none of it.

In fact, I'm not even at home. I'm at school, in my 8th period, having finished all my assignments early. Normally, I use this time to catch up on my typing exercises, or to e-mail friends, but I've already e-mailed what I want, and am going to update this little blog of mine. Perhaps I'll even change all the visuals! And/or the format! Not to confuse anyone, of course. I just like to make things interesting.

Admittedly, I have not opened the Foam Cabinet much this month. I have barely even thought about the Foam Cabinet... shame on me!

So, I look around this classroom, and what do I see?

(I don't see a brown bear looking at me...)

Directly in front of me is Micah Hall (Whom I will refer to as Nemo). He has finished his typing lessons. All of them. Mrs. Teacher (obviously not her real name) is very impressed. She seems to be easily impressed.

And all along Nemo's row are other freshman girls. I'm probably the only junior in this class. There IS a senior, but I don't know her. She's in my row. The room smells of sweet pea lotion and new towels.

Fluffy blue towels. They don't smell like any other color...

Anyway, to say something worth being said, here are my thoughts:

1. I do not want to kill myself. =)
2. It smells REALLY strongly of sweet pea right now...
3. I wonder if Soccer Boy#13 has soft arms.
4. My hair is not that soft right now.
5. And my fingers are cold.
6. Lindsay (I shall call her Pearl) has something to tell me!! AND SHE REFUSES TO SPEAK OF IT!!
7. I wish MMG would e-mail me back. I miss her.
8. Will Mark (I'll call him Blondie) eat lunch with me tomorrow? 'Cause he didn't show up Friday.
9. EVERYONE'S GETTING BACK FROM SNOWBIRD!!! <3
10. God is hilariously sweet. I love Him.
11. Are they going to change the pledge of allegience to some "anti-religious" junk?
12. Who's gonna be our new president?
13. I bet Soccer Boy#13 also has soft hair. No, I KNOW he does. ;)
14. I can imagine Soccer Boy#13's teasing glare right now... he's so modest.
15. I like the feel of pressing buttons on a computer. Or pressing buttons in general.
16. I'm too pink today.
17. I like the number 19, but on page 19 today, I was reminded of the selfish evils of whites towards the Native Americans. So freakin' sad...
18. Ed was the one who introduced the phrase "freakin'" to me.
19. Nineteen! Make a wish, kids!
20. My fingers are cold.
21. Nemo is pretty handsome.
22. All these freshman are so pretty! =D
23. What can I do for my parents when I get home?
24. Violet (Zara) and Pearl are so precious. I love them so very very much...
25. I wonder how innocent I am? Because, although I know a lot, I haven't done much. Heck, I haven't even kissed anyone! Cool beans.
26. Nemo is looking at flowers on his computer. ??
27. I'm ready to play soccer tomorrow.
28. I wish I could be more inspired to write letters to everyone.
29. The human body is amazing.
30. I'm going to miss church on Wednesday. =( But I can still praise God while marching my bass drum!
31. 30 days hath September, April, June, and November. All the rest have 31, except for February.
32. I wonder how Mrs. Sheehan is doing.
33. What if all my friends died?
34. What if I accidentally killed someone? Oh, gosh... I'd never live that down...
35. I need a job.
36. We have 15 minutes left in class.
37. What is my passion?
38. Hugs. <3
39. 2:22 does not seep nearly as special as 11:11.
40. I wonder why I don't cuss.
41. I love the number 41! So I'll end on this note.

The Foam Cabinet is slowly and surely fading away as my life becomes busier and busier. But not to worry; it won't dissappear for a while.